Thursday, May 5, 2011

Turning 30!

Why is it that I just can't manage to keep up with this blog? It's not like I have that much going on, LOL! So...where to begin...well, today is my 30th birthday! I woke up to my son telling me he needs to go poo-poo! LOL, hey, it could have been worse, I suppose! I feel pretty good about turning the big 3-0, I am in great health, 121 lbs, happy and feeling like my life has purpose. When I turned 25, I was overweight, 164 lbs and pregnant with Gabriel. From that point on, I feel like I kind of lost my self and my identity. Thank God for restoration and cleansing, I feel like I'm in a much better place!

So...to catch up...we've adjusted to the new house, love living here and having the space to roam and play and garden! We started our second vegetable garden this spring and it's doing great. We have been diligently praying for something that I could do completely from home and God provided last month. All from home! What a miraculous answer to prayer!

After several years of bouncing in and out of our church music ministry and not really feeling at home, I took a leap of faith in February and tried out for the vocal team. There was a lot of emotional struggle in this because of the spiritual darts the devil had been tossing at me....feelings of inadequacy etc. There is some major talent and I was convinced that I wasn't needed. To my surprise and delight, my feedback was amazing and the team was extremely supportive and encouraging. I have been scheduled to sing quite a few times, and even traveled to Cowboy Church to sing with one of our worship leaders. Last Sunday was my first time on our big stage and I was so excited to help lead our congregation! God is good!

The biggest news I have to share is our recent expectation of a Christmas Baby! I found out I was pregnant on April 28th! 18 days late and 6 negative pregnancy tests had us stumped! My doctor was telling me that I probably didn't ovulate and should begin to think about fertility meds. I was vonvinced otherwise, but was still surprised to see 2 lines that Thursday morning! To tell Josh, I purchased a sweet baby layette and stuffed the test in the tiny hat...it was wrapped in a Christmas box...I told Josh that I'd found him an early Christmas present...when he opened the package, the card read: "This present will arrive December 19th!". His reaction was priceless!! We were very excited to tell Gabriel as he's been asking for a baby brother for the better part of a year! He was beyond excited running all over the house and giggling! To our chagrin, telling a 4 year old isn't the best way to keep a secret, I've had a couple moms from his class message me to ask if I'm pregnant...he's been telling everyone that he will be a big brother!!

I had my first prenatal visit yesterday...the city switched insurance carriers and we lost all our doctors, I was very disappointed that I would lose my Ob/Gyn. Yesterday's visit was extremely stressful. Based on our calculations, we figured I was about 7 weeks along, the doctor wanted to do an ultrasound and was distressed when she could not see the baby. She feared that I was having a tubal pregnancy and ordered an emergency 3D ultrasound. I had to drive 30 minutes to Spring, anxiously awaiting the status of my pregnancy. The whole drive I was on the verge of a breakdown, but I felt the Lord, holding my hand and telling me that "Not seeing, isn't necessarily believing!". I didn't panic and I didn't make a bunch of calls, I just calmly prepared for my test. Within a few seconds, my panic turned to relief when we saw the yolk sac protecting my precious, little treasure. Turns out...we are not really 7 weeks along, but perhaps 5 1/2. Everything began to add up...why it took so long to test positive and why we couldn't see Baby on the other machine. I ovulated very late and was extremely early! Huge sigh of relief...this means my due date could potentially be Dec 26 or later! Maybe a New Year's baby??!

I sit here this morning, extremely grateful, blessed and reflective. God is great! "Every good and perfect gift comes from the Father!" James 1:17. What truth in this verse...the Lord truly gives us the best gifts and there could not be a more perfect one for my 30th birthday!

Past Post from May 5th!